I’ve been sparse. I know. And I love all of you who haven’t completely lost faith and stopped following me. So when I started this whole weight loss blog shin dig thing, I was 201 lbs and today I’m 190 lbs. My lowest weight was 183 (granted at the time I had a severe case of strep throat and wasn’t eating) but leveled my lowest to be about 185. I know it needs to be lower. I’m just thankful it hasn’t gone up too much. Just the same though… I need to focus.

Dr. Oz has this just 10 lbs thing. Where that’s all you focus on losing. Just 10 lbs. Just 10. Sitting here thinking about it, I think that’s not too much. Just 10 lbs. I can do that. Right? Right. Well I’m going to try and start finding time to blog more on here about just 10 lbs. With that said… I think I want to lose just 10 lbs before July 01. So that means on June 30th I want to weigh in at 180 lbs. Can I do this? Oh yes. So it starts today. Oh and bare with me, I’ll probably be weighing in everyday. Just so I can see the ups and downs.

Life has been a tad bit insane lately and I’ve let me self indulge in whatever I was wanting. Apparently that needs to stop. I can’t see me having a problem getting back into the 180’s I mean… I think most of 187-190 right now is bloat weight/salt retention. So lets see how all this goes.

My new favorite thing about weight loss… when things start to fit better. I have a pair of black slacks that I got my first semester of college, and I also have a grey pair. The grey pair is made with a more stretchy fabric so they’ve always been more comfortable… which hasn’t always been the case with the black pair. I mean they would button, but it felt like they were trying to cut me in half… it hurt so bad. Well today I stepped on the scale and saw 185.4 (haven’t seen that number in awhile) so I thought I’d try them on…AND THEY FIT. I’m so excited. I’m only 15 lbs away from everything in my closet fitting. 15. I mean I know that’s still a lot, but I think it’s totally do able. And I know it can be done. And I’m the closest I’ve been to it in awhile. Oh! Oh! And I’m almost at 183 (weight I hit when I’m deathly ill…. or the weight I was when I moved to NC) so that will probably be my next goal. Then getting into the 170’s. It’s all happening.

On Monday my weight had spiked up to 190 but now… after two days of completely clean eating, I’m back at 187.0… I think a small part of me had hoped to see 186 but its all good. My goal is to be 185.8 by Friday. Do I think that’s possible? Psh, yeah. Can’t wait to get there.

If any of you read this thing… you know I have a tendency on planning to do something but then not really following through. Well. I’m going home this Friday to visit the family for the weekend. Which should be all in fun. But I’ve also been wanting to shed a few lbs somewhat quickly. I know I know. You can’t just drop lbs fast and have it mean something… but I only kind of believe that.

I know my diet is most of what makes up my weight. Very little of it is actually exercise. So this week I thought I’d try eating natural and see how it goes. Natural as in nothing processed. No funny chemicals mixed in to make my food/beverage taste just so. I think I’ve tried this before with the idea in mind but failed miserable. This week though I made a point to try and arm myself. With yummy things I could make for myself for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Not going to lie… so far so good. It hasn’t been too hard yet. There was a moment last night when I was exhausted on my way home from dealing with the car dealership till 9:30 and all I wanted was something to eat. But I waited till I got home. Even though it would have been so much easier to just grab something on the way home.

So far between yesterday and today… my diet has gone something like this….

Yesterday

Breakfast

- Fresh orange juice (16 oz.)

Lunch

- Sweet potato, corn, black beans, and poblano pepper salad (from Whole Foods)

- Grapes… yummy (about 12 grapes)

Dinner

-2 Lemon pepper shrimp skewers (YUM!)

Night time snakc

- Grapes… not sure how many

Today

Breakfast

- Hard-boiled egg

Oh and even though its not on the list, I’ve been drinking a ton of water as well. I’d really like to get down to 185 by Friday and I think if I can keep eating like this, it’s totally doable. The really cool thing about eat naturally… it’s all good for me. I don’t have to worry too much about what it’s going to do to me if I eat ___. I mean I know you can gain weight eating even healthy food. But still….

186.6

Feeling good about this.

I was talking to a friend last night, going on about how gross it is that a size 14 pant is the new average for women… and I wear a 12. I hate how lazy America has become. I mean I know I’m not thin either… but I’m working on it— even if it is a slow process. And then my friend said something to me. Something I’ve read a million times, and maybe thought once or twice.

If you don’t like the way you look, do something about it. And stick to it.

Of couse! So easy. yeah… okay. not so easy. but it motivated me today to do my workout. I wont bore you with the details, but I did burn 1,000+ calories. So I’m feeling pretty good about that. Now time to go lay out.

Not proud to say it but my Sundays have become about GTL

Day 1: .78 miles

Day 2: .84 miles

Day 3: .89 miles

I kinda didn’t want to go running… again. But just the same I’m so glad I did it, today I pushed myself, I’m not sure if it was “pushing myself harder” or I’m just getting faster. But I’m liking this 10 minute thing, I really push myself, both physically and mentally. Feeling good though

184.8

Holy cow!!!! Ok. So part of me thinks my scale is messed up. But part of me thinks I’ve finally gotten my weight down. I’m going with the belief that my weight is down. It helps me to feel better. So for today I’m going to feel so excited about 184, and what I need to do to get out of the 180’s

I’m so lazy. Totally didn’t want to run. The only thing that actually made me run, was this very loud voice in my head screaming “ITS ONLY TEN MINUTES!!!!” So I got dressed (in muh running clothes), and I went out to run for ten minutes. Not bad.

Day 1: .78 miles

Day 2: .84 miles

Getting a little faster… or maybe just pushing myself a little more. Either way its good. It’s funny because when I’m doing it, and I finish, I beat myself up a little. 10 minutes? That’s it. Come on I KNOW you can run longer than that. And I can. But… I also want to run faster. So if running less means I’m going to start running faster, then it’s all good.

This time last year, I loved running. Running made me feel good. 3 miles was an easy run. 4 miles was a great run. But my how things can change in 1 year. Don’t get me wrong I’m not sitting here feeling sorry for myself. But running 3 miles just isn’t what it used to be. Granted. 3 miles was really fucking hard the first time I did it, that much I remember. And it got easier. But just the same. Running and I don’t have the same relationship as we used to. Not only that. But I want to run faster. Not just further. But faster.

Can I run for 45 minutes without stopping? Sure. Is it slow? Yes. I want to break a sweat on my runs, I want to feel tired.

So with all that said, I’m trying something out this week. 5 days of running. Ah! 5 days. You need a break in between… is probably what you’re thinking. But not the way I plan on running. I’m sticking with a 10 minute run. I know that doesn’t seem like much, and it really isn’t. But for me 10 minutes is a length of time where I can actually push myself. And watch myself get faster. That’s the plan at least

Of course. On the one day where I need to sit a standard, my freaking GPS decided to not work. But I drove it afterward and see how far it was.

10 minutes= .78 miles… more tomorrow